Raytchaelle

We bought the new game pack for our Wii Fit like a month ago and have just let it collect dust ever since… until tonight! We finally broke it out and gave it a whirl… man was that fun!!! And now my arms hurt! hehe… I had to pretend to be a bird and fly from place to place getting points… then I butt-bumped some mushrooms while trying to add to 10… then I had a snowball fight… then I stretched my spine with a little yoga (I seem to have a nack for that)… I finished it all off by trying to tilts some balls in their color coordinated baskets and now I know how Lucile Ball felt in those old shows where she did things on assembly lines. It was a lot of fun. It was not easy… and it actually tells you how many calories you’ve burned! That was new.

I’m already looking forward to doing it again tomorrow.

So I made a couple of choices today. First off I was trying my new Kashi cereal this morning when I noticed the box said it containted a fruit snack inside… ooo… looks like fruit leather! I LOVE fruit leather!!!! So a snagged it and stowed it away for a work snack. Once I got to work I got to thinking I could just run over to the health food store and get a small supply of fruit leather on my lunch break… I’d forgotten how yummy and healthy and cheap those things are! 65 cents per… I got about $9 worth. 45 calories each, no added sugars whatsoever… 1 gram of fiber each… made only with fruit and fruit juice… YUMMY!!!

So tonight I decided to make cookies. Why? I don’t know… I had some chocolate chips and peanut butter chips that are getting old and my mom left a lot of flour and sugar for me to use after her last visit. So I let Jamie “help” make them… basically she got to pour in the chips and attempt to stir them em while playing like she was going to eat the batter. Crazy kid… she had a big grin on her face the whole time! So I make the cookies… blegh! Too much flour for my taste. They turned out the way my Aunt makes cookies. Yuck. *sigh* So now I have a bunch of cookies and I don’t want them… Jeff is in heaven.

I got my tooth pulled earlier today. It went fine… my tooth did fall apart shortly after the Dr started pulling on it but he managed to get it out of there without too much trouble. I asked about getting a tooth implant rather than having a bridge or leaving it empty. I just have to talk to my dentist and come back to the surgery center in 6-8 weeks to discuss the cost and all that. He said this space was a good candidate for an implant. So as long as it affordable I think I’ll do it. Haha… I’ll have a falsie!

After I left the oral surgeon I went to the DMV to get my license renewed… wouldn’t you know it, the birth certificate I have isn’t good enough for them. So I have to send off to Wyoming for a government issued one! Ugh! Why do they have to be so difficult? I did get a 60 day extension to renew so at least I’m legal to drive.

Next stop was wal-mart to get my pain meds and antibiotic. Of course I had to wait on the pharmacist to put some pills in some bottles… so Jeff and I went looking for ways to spend my birthday money. I got a wireless mouse and carrying case for my laptop… jewel quest to play on my laptop… an old Stephen King movie… new ear buds for my MP3 player… and some sharpie pens, dry erase markers and a new dry erase board. (are those odd things to buy yourself as gifts?) Finally got my meds and came home.

Again I find myself wishing there was steak flavored pudding or cheeseburger yogurt! I can’t have anything solid for a day or two… and only mushy things for the next 3-4 days. I already miss meat. But I did find some sugar free pudding that has active cultures in it just like yogurt! 

I had a blood draw on Saturday and just got the call from the dr about it. My thyroid is good… but my sugars and tryglicerides are “out of wack” as the nurse put it. So they are going to get my set up with the internal meds dr to try and get things straightened out. They were supposed to have gotten me in to see him several months ago and never did. I even called to ask about it and was told that they forgot but I guess that wasn’t enough to get them thinking it needed to be done. Anyway, I’m looking forward to seeing him again. I hope he can help me figure things out. I’m sure part of the problem has been my tooth trouble and the infections… anywho, now maybe we can get me back on track. Maybe he can even help me with the weight loss… it’s all connected afterall.

Hope you all had a good Halloween!

After a painfilled week I finally made up my mind. This tooth is coming out. I made the appointment today and will hopefully find some relief after Monday. It’s kind of funny… every time the pain meds kick in and I feel ok I think my tooth is fine and I should just not worry about it. Then they wear off and all I can think of is yanking it out myself.

Having a tooth pulled isn’t really how I wanted to spend my day off with my family. But at least I don’t have to take any additional time off beyond the day I already have. We were going to drive to another city to let Jamie play in the big toy store, but since we’ll be doing it Sunday instead we didn’t really have any Monday plans anyway.

Jamie seems to be feeling better. She still had a slight fever the next morning, but by the end of the day she was her old self and fever free. I’m letting her stay home with Grandma and Grandpa the rest of the week anyway. They brought their cat, Rufus with them and it’s as good as christmas for her. He’s so old he doesn’t seem to care when she tries to pick him up or hugs and kisses on him like a little maniac. It’s fun to watch her play with him.

I’ve been eating better! Yay!! Dad tried my special bread.. it’s flat and made with whole wheat. What’s it called? Oro wheat? Something like that… Mom said he liked it. Maybe I’ll convert him from flour tortilla’s afterall!

Tomorrow Donna, my work partner, is dressing up gothic for Halloween and wants me to dress up somehow too. Guess I’ll have to sift through my closet and see what I can come up with… and what fits. At least I can paint my nails black… that’s better than nothing?

Tomorrow night Jeff is taking me on a “date” for my birthday which is Sunday. I’m looking forward to that… some time away just with him. Jamie get’s to stay home and play with the grandparents and Rufus. She’ll enjoy that and I wont have to worry about her since I know my mom is more than capable of taking care of her.

It’s almost time to go, I’m at work. I actually got everything done today… so now it all comes down to what work comes in tomorrow. Hopefully I’ll get out of here on time. If not… overtime pay!

I did weigh in Monday morning and I was right about where I thought I would be. A few pounds up… not bad. Certainly nothing to stress over. It’ll just be a matter of getting myself back out for my walks and being sure to eat right. I have been working on making better choices again. Really I haven’t gotten too far off course. My main downfall was a sugary cereal in the morning instead of a healthy one. I’ve remedied that. I plan to get back out on the sidewalk at lunch starting next week. Now, before you go and ask why wait I have to say that it’s end of month at work and I don’t even take my lunch break because I’ve got far too much to do.

 I’ve been kind of quiet since my last blog. I’ve been quiet in my real life as well. I guess however I am in one area is how I am in all the others too. I’ve been quiet because the pain is back. Not in my tooth so much this time. It’s in my cheek and often spreads through my jaw and sometimes up into my forhead. I keep debating on if it is my tooth, my sinuses, or something else. I don’t know if I should see my doctor or dentist… and it doesn’t matter anyway since I can’t take any time off right now to see either. I’ve used almost all of my vicodin from the dentist… been taking my husbands tramadol during the day since he isn’t using it and it doesn’t make me sleepy… and eating a steady diet of ibuprofen all day to keep the pain at bay. I kind of feel like I’ve been smiling too much. You know what I mean? When you’ve smiled so much your face hurts? That’s how I feel most of the time.

My poor little Jamie started running a temperature tonight too. Since Grandma and grandpa are here I can let her stay home tomorrow and not worry. They picked the right time to visit! Hopefully she will be better tomorrow.

I’ve noticed something… my last several blogs have had nothing to do with weight loss. In fact that’s been about the furthest thing from my mind lately. I haven’t even been checking myself on the wii fit the last week or two. *sigh* I’ve lost my focus…. and I have this sneaking feeling that I’ve gone up a few pounds. I’ll have to force myself to check in the morning.

So I have a goal now… to regain my focus. First step is weighing in. Second step is to regroup my efforts to eat healthy. Third step is to get back to my daily walk routine.

At least I caught myself before a few pounds became 10 or 15 pounds….

I saw my dentist on Monday. After a short discussion he was ready to set me up to have my hurting tooth pulled. Then I asked if my tooth ache could have been caused by the sinus infection I was getting. His eyes lit up and he said that could very well be causing the pain. So we’re holding off on pulling the tooth, or doing anything. He said if it starts hurting again without any sinus symptoms then we’ll go ahead and take care of it then. So yay! Let’s hope the pain stays away!

As for the office politics… apparently I wasn’t the only one being targeted by the “best friends club”. We had our monthly staff meeting today and the guy who’s over our manager was there.  He had some very stern words for us all. As much as I dislike being talked to like I’m 5, I was really glad he “yelled” at us all the way he did. I don’t think our manager would have resolved anything on her own or even told us all to grow up and stop acting like we’re in high school. She’s too worried about being buddies with us… at least some of us. Anyhow I hope that puts a stop to the rumor mill. Even though I had a private talk with the girl that was told the lie, I went ahead and sent her an email today to make sure there was no bad blood between us. She said we’re cool as far as she’s concerned. So I feel better about that, but I’m still angry over being betrayed. I’m still going ahead with my plan to not talk to people.

Oh… positive note… during the meeting I spoke up for my partner, Donna. Someone had been telling people she was mean, or she was rude to me or some stupid crap like that. So I said in front of everyone that she’s not mean or rude and is actually a very nice person. She was really touched by my short little speach. After the meeting she caught me in a surprise hug and told me thanks. I’m really very glad that we’re in that little room together. It’s funny how much one person can make such a difference in how I feel about going to work everyday.

Thanks to all of you who commented on my last post. You’re support really means a lot to me. I’m really grateful to have you all in my life and I hope I’m in some way helpful to each of you.

I have had an official toothache since Wed last week. Thursday I made an appointment to see the dentist and begged for some pain meds since I can’t go in til Monday. So I’ve been on Vicodin that last couple of days. I’ve been drifting in and out of consciousness all weekend. I can’t wait to see the dentist… I’m wonding what he’s going to reccomend… what’s causing the pain.

The drama of office politics has become almost intollerable lately. I had a casual conversation with two women I thought we both friends and trustworthy. One went and twisted my words and spread her twisted version of what was said to other people… the end result she mad someone mad at me for no good reason. So this other person who previsouly yelled at me in front of everyone for a very similar circumstance (and then privately appologized for being an a$$ to me) came and talked to me. I tried my best to set things straight. I let her know what I actually said and what I actually meant were not what was told to her. I even had a talk with my manager about the situation. But now I’m left with this feeling of betrayal. If there’s anything I can’t stand it’s being lied to or lied about. I just wonder why this certain group seems to have it out for me… what did I ever do to them? I come to work and I do my work and I go home. I hardly ever talk to anyone. I always help when needed. I just don’t get it… I thought this girl was nice. Now I know better. I told my manager that I’ve learned my lesson. I will no longer be talking to anyone. Why do people have to be mean? I am concidering looking for a new job.

Well, playing the “ignore it” game seems to have worked. The side pain is gone… maybe I pulled a muscle? Who knows… as long as it doesn’t come back.

I thought I was having a tooth ache, but then it started skipping from one tooth area to another (all upper) and now I’m having nasal symptoms so my guess is my teeth are fine… just another stupid sinus infection! Time to pull out the Neti Pot and Zicam.

I saw a blog a while back that mentioned using Metformin as a weight loss pill. I almost laughed. I take metformin for my diabetes and PCOS. I have to say, it didn’t make me lose any weight. When I started taking my thyroid medicine I noticed a drop in my weight… about 10 lbs… that was 7-8 years ago. I’ve even heard of people using thyroid meds for weight loss… those people are stupid. Seriously, having too much thyroid hormone is just as dangerous as not having enough (I didn’t have enough). It must be human nature to want a quick fix. But we didn’t put this weight on overnight… or even in the space of 2 or 3 months… it’s going to take time to lose it too… probably more time than it did to gain it.

That reminds me… Jeff and I saw a show with these people who had the lap band procedure or stomach stapling done and sure they lost a lot of weight quickly… but then they ended up with huge flaps of skin all over. They looked even worse than they did fat. Actually, they looked better fat. Skin flaps are not attractive… and that’s going to happen to people who lose too fast… no matter what your method is. I’d rather lose it slow and avoid the skin flaps.

Well, I finally talked myself into trying to find some pants again… I thought I was between sized but it turns out I am officially down a size! And I finally got a new pair of pants!… and a replacement shirt for the one Jamie spilled fingernail polish all over. *sigh* It may have been a bad idea to let a 2 year old paint my nails… but it was fun!

Ok… I have this mystery pain in my side… upper left… in the same area my gallbladder pain was but on the wrong side. (And I don’t have a gallbladder anymore) So now I must decide if it’s bad enough to see the doctor… ugh. Guess I’ll hit webmd first and then play the “let’s ignore it and hope it goes away” game.

Hope everyone had a good weekend!